A couple walks arm in arm, runners sprint past, and grown men whiz by on bikes. A little boy cries crocodile tears as he tries to maneuver his trike with training wheels. The trail is full today, but so are the ditches on either side.
A week of gray skies and pounding rain kept us indoors, the pathway empty. Yesterday’s storm raged, the wind violently ripping branches. We sidestep what has haphazardly fallen, careful to avoid the trees split in half that nearly block the way. The small dips are now filled to overflowing with stagnant water that approaches the edges of the trail and tree limbs are empty of all they once held, but there are quiet conversations and laughter floating through the air like the branches swirling in the storm-made ponds.
I pause beside a tree that I’ve walked by one hundred times before. I know that it blooms each spring, that soon pale pink buds will appear, but today it appears void of life. For now, it tells the story of the storm. If I didn’t know any better, I’d declare destruction got the last word. But when I step back to snap a picture, my breath catches and tears prick, threatening to water the ground that is already flooded.
Somehow, my camera phone picks up the rays of the sun reaching, covering, landing directly on the broken pieces. Like a laser, it beams down on what has splintered. I snap pictures and walk on, wondering if I’ve just seen the verse that sits on my dresser come to life before my eyes.
Every day I look at a framed print of these words from Hosea 2:15, “There I [God] will give her back her vineyards, and I will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she will sing…”
Every day I pray, “May it be. I believe, Lord, please help my unbelief.”
I am weary and worn out from a nearly thirteen-year-long storm that doesn’t seem to end. I’m confident God is with me here, by my side every step of the way, but after all this time I’m learning what it means to not set up camp, to believe that I really am passing through.
The Valley of Achor means the valley of trouble or affliction. It’s a low place of weeping and wailing, of suffering and severity, of death and difficulty.
I know the consistency of the sand and the pebbles that crunch beneath my feet. I know the scorch of the sun bearing down in the day and the questions that arise as the stars fill the sky. This valley has left its mark in scars and sunburns and tear-streaked cheeks.
I know this place, but when I find myself becoming resigned, tempted to reach for tent pegs because I might as well settle in, Hosea fills me with the hope that one day I’ll know it in a whole new way.
Isaiah 65:10 seems to underline the promise, circling hope with a bright highlighter, when it declares the Valley of Achor will become a resting place for sheep and for God’s people. The Shepherd will lead us through the valley of the shadow of death until it becomes a flourishing field, a place of restoration.
We may not know the how or the when or why our valley of affliction seems to be stretching on for so long, but we can trust the One who will carry us through, can settle into His arms instead of setting up camp.
We have a God who fills the valleys to overflowing, who takes places of deep heartache and makes them doorways of hope.
We have a God who can turn things around, who swallowed death and then spoke resurrection.
We have a God who stays with us in the storm and says “this won’t be the end of the story.”
The trail tells a story of destruction today, but the sky sings another song. The branches above are bare, but between them stretches an expanse of bright blue. The storm had something to say, but the sun arrived and a place of loss is coming back to life.
He’s a God of resurrection, not resignation.
For now, there’s mercy like manna in a muddy place. But it won’t be long until heartache is swallowed up by hope. The valley is never the end, for the valley itself is a door. We’re passing through.
Already, all is being made new.
If today’s post resonated and you’d like more encouragement from Kaitlyn, her book Even If Not: Living, Loving, and Learning in the in Between will help you choose hope for tomorrow when, at least for now, you’re still in the middle of the storm.
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Today’s replay is from April 2022. It’s an excerpt from the Create in Me a Heart of Hope Bible study, was written by Michele Cushatt, and is titled Holding On to Hope When We Just Can’t Anymore. Listen below or wherever you stream podcasts.
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Paul W. Conant says
Thank you; I will pass it on to those whose storms are worse than mine.
Paul
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Thank you for sharing, Paul!
Judyc says
Thank you Kaitlyn for sharing this message of Hope no matter what. I am praying for you as you walk through this valley. I know that the storms make us stronger, prayers for all of us that we will continue walking confidently, knowing that God is holding our hand each step of the way.
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
I appreciate and echo those prayers, thank you.
Kathy Francescon says
Such a beautiful style of writing and such an comforting post, Kaitlyn! Words so softly spoken, yet so powerfully true! Thank you for sharing this heart felt story! It has truly blessed me this morning! This is to I am sharing with my Prayer Group today!
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
It’s a gift to hear that the words from this moment were a blessing. Thank you, Kathy, for your kindness.
Madeline says
Such helpful words this morning as I approach the 5 year anniversary of my husband’s suicide. This morning I felt like pitching camp but I look outside and even though the ground is covered in snow, the sun is peeking through the trees. There is hope and I need to take scripture’s word to heart.
Cheyla says
Oh Madeline, big hug to you!
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Praying for you right now, Madeline, and asking God to plant fresh hope.
Beth Williams says
Madeline,
Abba Father please shower Madeline with hope. Give her glimpses of what is to come. Take away the darkness & shed your light & love on her. Put your loving arms around her.
Sending Hugs your way (XXXXXXXXXXXXX)
Blessings 🙂
Angela says
I love today’s devotional so much! Thank you! I need to get back to reading your book! I find myself in a bit of a stormy season and often wondering, like you said, should I just pitch a tent and live here? Is this my life now (again)? I struggle so much with what obedience in the storm looks like? How will I know when the storm is over? I pray daily for God to align my heart with His. I don’t want to lose hope, but I don’t want to sit around waiting for the wrong things either.
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
I’ve been thinking a lot about the space between defeat and defiant hope… it can be a tightrope sometimes, right? Praying for you today.
karyn j says
well that was certainly needed! thank you for sharing kaitlyn. this part truly blessed me, “The valley is never the end, for the valley itself is a door. We’re passing through.”
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Amen, thank God it’s true!
Dawn Ferguson-Little says
Excellent well said Kaitlyn. Yes the storm is never the of story no matter what we go through in life. God is always there beside us to help us through what we go through. All we have to do is Pray to God and trust his promises in his word. Know that he never leaves us nor forsake us no matter what storms we go through. We can do as Proverbs 3 verse 5&6 which says ” Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your way acknowledge Him And He shall direct your paths.” How true those verse are especially when going through a storm in our lives. To know we can trust the Lord with all our Hearts and not lean on our own understanding God will direct our paths through it all. That we can smile again. Look back at our strorm or stroms in week or few weeks. Know God hands was with was guiding us and telling us through his Holy Spirit what to do so we can again see light at the end of tunnel because we trusted God through it all. I say Amen to that. Love Dawn Ferguson-Little xxxx
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Thank you for reading and for your comment, Dawn! I hope you have a great day.
Bev Rihtarchik says
Kaitlyn,
I love the beauty with which you weave words — words I needed to hear this morning. For thirty plus years I’ve walked through the valley of mental illness — anxiety and depression. There are episodes and seasons in which I feel like the splintered tree you captured. I resign myself to setting up my tent. But then…the storm clears and the blue skies return. My soul and spirit lift and I see glimpses of heaven. I know one day I will be completely healed. The storm is never the end of the story — praise! Until then, I keep walking forward clutching His righteous right hand which guides me through…beautiful post!
Blessings and prayers sweet sister,
Bev
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Ah yes… with you in that splintered tree place, looking up, eyes fixed, watching for blue. One step and breath at a time, yes? He is faithful; we are grateful.
ELMorehead says
Thank you from the bottom of my heart! I needed these words today!
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
So glad they met you at the right time!
Sheri says
Thank you for these much needed words. God used them to remind me once again that He is with us in this storm we’re in (19 years now). And that it can only last a lifetime. Our real home is in His true light and His perfect love for eternity.
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Only this lifetime… yes and amen.
Gloria says
Awesome
Ellen says
My storm lasted more than 20 years. At times I resigned myself to “this is the way it will always be, deal with it”. But God never stopped working. He has made my relationship with Him and with my husband better than I could have ever imagined. I praise and thank Him every day. Don’t ever give up hope ❤️
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Ellen, thank you for the hope you give in this testimony. 20 years… what small words for such a long time. Thank you for this encouragement!
Beth Williams says
Kaitlyn,
Ours is a loving, caring God. The psalmist said it best in Psalm 23:4 “Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. He is walking us through our valleys. He knows the whole story. He has plans for us. Plans to prosper & not for harm. We just need to trust His timing & look for glimpses of hope all around us.
Blessings 🙂
Lynn says
Thank you for this encouraging post, so vulnerable. I will pray for you for sleep. Thank you for sharing your struggles.