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Kaitlyn is a Virtual Assistant, book launch manager, and storyteller who writes about discovering God's goodness in the ordinary and faithfulness in the difficult. She loves good books, deep conversations, and iced vanilla lattes. Kaitlyn is the author of Even If Not: Living, Loving, and Learning in the in Between.

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  1. Ah, the hard fought lessons of hope being a Person not our circumstances. I am sorry you have had such a hard path but praising Him you can see His goodness & raise your hopes and encourage us to do the same! Blessings!

  2. Kaitlyn, my hope for you is that you never lose your hope. It is the same hope I have for my own daughter who had brain surgery 31 years ago for seizures. You are not alone. He is always there to give you hope, peace and comfort. Blessings to you!

  3. Kaitlyn, such poignant, heartfelt words. Thank you for sharing this and my hopes for all of us is that we remember HOPE is always walking beside us, too.

  4. Kaitlyn, you dissected hope in a way only someone who has been steadfast on a difficult journey could. I am very enlightened by your words, having walked a ten year journey of heartbreaking estrangement from my two adult sons. I’ve continued to hope, while wrestling with it on challenging days. Like you, my hope will not be dashed. I will continue on.
    Know I’ll pray for your rest tonight and in nights to come.

    • I join with you, Kathleen B, on a multiple year “journey of heartbreaking estrangement.” My journey is from our son who is far from us and far from the Lord. My heart goes out to you, Kathleen, and I’ll join you in prayer.

      • MP,

        Prayers that God will change your son’s heart & bring them back to Him & you. We live in a fallen world full of sin. The devil makes that sin look enticing. Praise God He has overcome this world & can still work miracles. Keep on hoping & praying & I will also!

        Blessings 🙂

    • Kathleen,

      Prayers that God will change your sons’ hearts & bring them back to Him & you. This world can be so tempting to many, but God is greater than this world & He is still in the miracle business. Keep on hoping & praying.

      God bless 🙂

  5. I was so needing to hear this today. My heart is broken. My relationship with my daughter is fractured and I am hoping for a miracle. Thank you for sharing this. I’ll be sharing it with my family. Thanks again.

  6. Thank you for sharing. I’ve had the struggle of insomnia for over 20 years. I still hope too.

  7. Bless you Kaitlyn for blessing us with your raw exposure, teaching us what’s so valuable to learn from this.
    Praying for you.

  8. Kaitlyn, thank you for sharing so vulnerably. I needed this perspective on Hope. It’s been a long journey of feeling like there’s not much hope left about our relationship with our son who is far from us and far from the Lord. I need to cling to Hope in the Lord. I have other situations in my life that humanly speaking seem like there’s not much hope. I still need to cling to Hope in the Lord.

  9. I have rheumatoid arthritis and several other autoimmune disorders. I struggled with insomnia for 10 or more years. A few years ago, I started seeing a chiropractor who uses the activator method instead of the traditional bend and crack. It has changed my life. It has to do with the central nervous system and making sure your body is communicating correctly. I sleep, on average, 6 to 7 hours a night. Previously, I was lucky to get 1 to 2 hours. I’m sure you have tried many things but I felt like I needed to share how God answered my prayers and struggles. Getting sleep helps keep my other symptoms under control and I don’t feel like the walking dead anymore. I can play with my grandchildren and be an active participant in my own life. God is good. All the time. Thank you for sharing your hope. I hope and pray that your prayers are answered. Amen

  10. Hi Kaitlyn,

    I’ll be praying for you to receive some relief. Your faith is amazing and someday God will bless you for your perseverence.
    Slowly, I’m learning to stay in touch with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit continuously, talking and praying to one quite often. Praising has also been ramped up for me. This has helped with my stress levels and given me a better quality of sleep. Added to this, I’ve seen a new Naturopathic doctor who has given me new herbal remedies that are calming my immune system. Naturally, God is in this healing!!!
    One scripture that helps me tremedously, is Psalm 23 in the NLT version. This is slightly different than the one we all memorized in Sunday School but, the words are very calming.

    May God bless you, Sandy

  11. Kaitlyn, you are a bright, shining light this fine day! I thank you. And I am praying for you and all on this list.

    We seem to be losing our food and shelter and water heater yesterday! Frankly everything needed for a simple basic needs in life. My number one prayer is that my husband will reach out for Jesus! I’ve been praying for this since 1979. So while it seems like there is NO hope I am STILL running to God, depending on God, asking God how? When? WHAT? He is my certainty, whatever comes, I’ll be fine. I’m a daughter of The Living God!

    This journey is hard many times. But yes, no or wait to my prayers it’s okay. I have hope. His Name is Jesus! Love to all, Sally <3

    • Sally,

      Abba Father please change Sally’s husband’s heart. Bring him back to you. Show Him how much you love him. Assist them with their food, water heater & shelter issues. Guide them on this journey & bring some peace & hope into their lives.


      Blessings 🙂

  12. Oh Kaitlyn, your story touched my heart so much today! I have been there, the day in and the day out. I have had hope, I have given up hope, and I have come back to hope because I just love Jesus so much, because He loved me first! But that’s not to say it isn’t hard! Part of it is the grieving process too. Because we have hopes and dreams and desires that sometimes seem to have to all be put aside. You are on my heart and in my prayers. Hugs

  13. Kaitlyn,
    I too had brain surgery to (partially) remove a cancerous tumor 12 years ago and the insomnia is certainly not something you can prepare for. At the age of 36 I feel like an “old lady” because I try to go to bed as early as I can some nights with the hopes that I can squeeze out a LITTLE more sleep than I normally would.

    I will be adding you to my prayers as I spend a lot of time at nights talking to our amazing, miracle working God. I praise Him that you are still able to share your talents with us all and thank you for being so vulnerable. I have turned to 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 many times to remind myself that as He has so wonderfully blessed me with so many more days than my doctors expected (and inherently comforted me throughout the many trials) I have such a grand opportunity to use my experiences to comfort others going through similar circumstances. May you find yourself getting some of your moments of sleep back each night. Even if not, He’s a great listener!

  14. Thank you for sharing your story and your faith. It is a beautiful vulnerability you have put out in the world. May God use it and you to bless others. It was an encouragement to me.

  15. Kaitlyn THANK YOU for sharing your heart with us, and being so vulnerable. What I learned in the last 3 year difficult season is God is Faithful and the Waiting is a beautiful invitation to intimacy with our Savior. It’s not easy but so worth it. My husband & I will add you to our Prayer book. Thanks again, and I pray for the day of deep unencumbered sleep! Thank you Lord Jesus on the hilltops and in the valleys!

  16. Kaitlyn,

    You are an inspiration to many people. You’ve been through a lot, yet continue to hope in God. Your message here points us to keep hoping not necessarily for an answer but a person. God tells us to be persistent in our prayers. Luke 18:1-8 where Jesus tells the parable of the persistent widow & the unjust judge. He didn’t fear God or cared what people thought. Because the widow kept bothering him he granted her plea. verse 7-8 “And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. Keep on hoping & praying everyone!

    Blessings 🙂