A flash of color through the bedroom window caught my eye. What was that? The sun was still struggling to rise, the darkness slowly rolling back. I couldn’t be sure what I’d seen in the soft, early morning light. So I backtracked, paused at the glass, and searched for the hot-pink hue that had stopped me in my tracks.
Ahhhh, the wildflowers are blooming!
Several days had passed since I’d walked around the back side of our home. Nestled against the woods, there is no real reason to walk around that side of the house. Everything we need — the garage, front door, back patio, deck — is accessible from the other side. Until the flash of pink caught my eye through the bedroom window and drew me outside.
As I came around the corner, I could hardly believe the symphony of color that awaited me. Bursts of deep purple, lavender, yellow, white, and hot pink danced before my eyes, the various Colorado wildflowers swaying in the early summer breeze.
These wildflowers bloom every summer at different times and to varying degrees, depending on the spring’s rainfall and the sun’s heat. This year we’d had an unusually high number of thunderstorms followed by brilliant sunshine. The result was one of the best wildflower displays I’d seen since we lived here.
The only problem? I’d been distracted by life and almost missed it.
So that day, I slowed my pace and walked the perimeter, taking in the view. I stopped to consider the different varietals, noting their brilliant colors and unique greenery. Some boasted unopened blooms, promising a better display in the coming days. I had to make sure I didn’t miss it.
Then, toward the end of my self-guided wildflower tour, I noticed a splash of black-and-yellow in the center of one of the purple blooms. Thinking it odd, I leaned closer to investigate.
To my surprise, what I discovered wasn’t the pistil of the flower, but the butt of a honey bee. Yes, the black-and-yellow striped backside of a bee that had parked himself in the purple cone-shaped bloom like I park my SUV in the garage. Nose in, butt out, engine off. Totally chill.
I laughed out loud. The bee wasn’t moving. Not a bit. Whether drunk on pollen or simply not a morning person, I couldn’t say. Regardless, he looked quite cozy and unmotivated to leave his purple bed. I marveled at my luck, until I looked to the left and found another bee butt similarly positioned in another purple bloom. Pollen-drunk bees were everywhere.
This was no longer an anomaly, but a pattern. Nature was doing nature. And it was extraordinary. Who knew?!
Based on his lack of movement or response, I don’t think Mr. Bee was the least bit interested in my epiphany. But my heart danced because in that moment, I felt a hint of the wonder of this marvelous, magical world. And I realized anew that the same God who made the too-cool-for-school bee also made the middle-aged woman who admired him.
We have the same Creator, little buddy. The same God who made you, made me. How amazing is that?!
The bee didn’t answer. But my spirit settled. Thank you, Father.
In the weeks and months before, I’d watched with utter helplessness as someone I care for sank deeper and further away from me. Wrestling with personal demons, some of which I couldn’t identify or understand, I prayed over and over again for clarity, wisdom, and divine rescue. Lord, save!
There are a few things as painful as watching someone you love self-destruct, and knowing you can’t do anything to stop it. How does a heart bear it?
Jesus said, “Look at the lilies and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?”
Luke 12:27-28 (NLT)
As I stood in front of a beautiful wildflower display for which I could take no credit and a comatose bee who remained completely oblivious to my presence, the Holy Spirit reminded me once again that our Father is in the details. He sees the bee napping in a bloom, and He sees the woman who stays awake through the night praying for those she loves. Although much is out of my control and I can’t predict ultimate outcomes, I know that the same Creator who grew the wildflowers and guided the bee can be trusted with the various people and problems that color my often complicated and sometimes heartbreaking life.
Some nights will still pass without sleep. Some days will still be marked by tears. But I can trust the one who cares for me, even more than the flowers and bees He made.
He is where my faith resides. Nose in, butt out, engine off. Totally chill.
And there I will rest.
Love this! I, too, need to trust God more with the people I love who are living destructive lives. There is a lot of alcoholism in my family. (Which is one reason I totally quit drinking alcohol about 19 years ago). Anyway two people in my family have been hospitalized due to pancreatitis from alcohol- my dad and just recently my sister. I feel like the main thing I can do is pray… but I also need to trust God more. Thank you for your post. You’re a blessing!
Pray and release, pray and release, pray and release … I have this on repeat in my head and heart all the time! Easier said than done.
Such a lovely message. Thank you for sharing this.
Thanks, Madeline. Have a wonderful Monday!
Dear Michelle thank you for this vivid description of the pollen drunk bees! Due to an eye infection that has rendered me mostly blind I have been forced to chill. Nose in, butt out, engine off;i dle; waiting on God’s to do as He wills. Not that I would ever say I like being so inactive, vulnerable (butt exposed metaphor???) BUT GOD is in the details & promise keeping I am not alone. I pray I am that black & yellow reminder in the vibrant colors to others to chill in His lavish design of life. Blessings! (((0)))
Whew, not easy, Ruth. I’m so sorry for your eye infection! May our God Who Heals, Jehovah Rapha, restore and renew you, body and soul!
Michele loved what you wrote. About the bee’s and flowers. It is amazing our creater made them all plus all the other things like slugs and different insects we don’t like most of us. I like Ladybirds over were we live we have an extra influx of them now in the summer and for a few years before that you hardly ever saw them. I have loved them since a we childvwith there red colour and black spots. I used to catch them and let them crawl over my hands. Then they fly away and I cry. My Mum. Would say and Nanny as we called my Mum’s Mum and my Dad Mum Granny. They smile and say Dawnid so happy and few of glee to see the ladybirds. They smile to themselves to see me get excited and shout with excitement there another ladybird.Catch it catch it.I tried to keep them when little in a match box with holes in and feed them docking leaves to eat in it all broken small to fit in the match box. My late Mum when I was in bed let them out of the match box and I cry they were gone. My mum would say Dawn I had to let them out again or they die. I didn’t understand what she was telling me as we only about 3 years old then. Then I go looking for them again the next day then weather was good. It hard to believe our creater made them too. About two years ago I saw one now big run across my kitchen floor I was in ow of how it got I to my house on the first place and so excited to see the we Ladybird it brought me back to when I was child. Just the way he made us. As it says in Psalm 139 verses 13 – 16. When we hear these words they are so lovely to read that our creater made us in our womb how amazing. Our creater cares for the insects we like and don’t like plus the slug too how much more does he care for us. Amazing I say again. Sure if we look on line on YouTube we can get the Father’s Love letter up it worth listening to. As it tell us about our creater love for us. That he new is from the beginning of time. So we have an amazing God. Thank you again for what you wrote. I loved it. Keeping you all incourage in my prayers and your Families too. Love Dawn Ferguson-Little Enniskillen Co.Fermanagh. N.Ireland xx
Your encouragement and prayers mean so much to us, Dawn! Thank you!
Michelle,
Thank you for that reminder to rest in our Father’s beauty on this busy Monday morning!
Sending you summer joy,
Lisa Wilt
You too, dear Lisa!
What a lovely analogy, Michele! And I’m glad you took the time to enjoy the flowers! I try to picture that field of wildflowers in my mind. It must have been extraordinary!
It IS extraordinary! Crested Butte, CO is the “wildflower capital” of Colorado, and this week I’ve been itching to go see it all. It’s been a good flower year!
Dear Michelle,
I so enjoy seeing you in my inbox!
My husband and I have been watching our adult son self destruct. Sadly for decades we’ve spent unbelievable amounts of money to support his living in his car as a homeless guy. He works part time thankfully but struggles with mental health issues as well. It’s all very maddening Michelle, as you’re very aware.
I absolutely love your description of the bees in the pollen soaking up the love!
My husband and I are almost there by the grace of God and a christian counselor.
Bee well friend,
Dee
Awwww thanks, Dee! Love being in your inbox. 😉
It is incredibly difficult when it’s our children who struggle … to watch and feel helpless is the worst sort of pain. I’m so sorry, sister. I’m PROUD of you for seeking a Godly counselor and continuing to cling to the Father no matter what. It encourages and inspires the rest of us!
Michele,
Trusting God in His timing is hard. We want answers now. Jesus waits so His glory will be displayed. While we wait & pray let’s be totally chill. Taking time to marvel at God’s creation.
Blessings 🙂
So true, Beth. Not easy! But worth it.
Thank you for your delightfully calming message. It really blesses my heart. I love Jesus and the flowers He creates. This truly hits the mark for me.
I’m so glad to hear it, Tracy. Some days we need a good ole-fashioned exhale. xo
I just had a friend who passed away. I needed these words. Thank you for sharing!
Totally wondrously awesome ❤️