Startled by the silence, I shot up in bed and searched for blurry neon red lights that confirmed it was three in the morning, time to feed the baby. But Andrew, our then newborn son, hadn’t made a sound. Was something wrong? Or was he actually sleeping through the night?
Wavering between panic and joy, I felt my way down the hall to the nursery and leaned over my sweet baby’s crib. Listening for the sound of his breathing, I carefully rested my hand on his tiny chest to feel the gentle rhythm of its rising and falling.
Moonlight slipped through the blinds, helping me see he was perfectly fine.
Most sane mothers would have gone back to bed, but not me. I stood there for a while simply delighting in my child.
I desperately needed sleep. I should have gone back to bed, knowing Andrew might wake up any minute but my desire to be with my child erased all logic. I wanted to savor the love I felt for this little guy who set my days in motion with his cries and smiles.
Andrew developed a routine of sleeping through the night soon after, yet I would listen for him, hoping for a good excuse to see if he was okay. While he was sleeping, I’d sneak into his room because I wanted to be with him. To watch over him. Then I’d tiptoe into his big brother Joshua’s room and watch him slumber.
Looking at my children’s faces, I’d imagine the boys God was shaping them to become. Praying for them to know Jesus and love Him with all their hearts, I’d also ask God to calm their fears, fulfill their dreams, and establish their steps to follow His ways.
My sons are seventeen and nineteen now, but sometimes I still sneak into their rooms to pray over them and watch them sleep. They aren’t doing anything to make me feel proud or happy. In fact, they may have even driven me to my wit’s end that day, but it doesn’t matter. I delight in them because they are mine.
Zephaniah 3:17 reminds us that God feels the exact same way about you and me.
“For the LORD your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With His love, He will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.” (NLT)
I need this. This seeing myself as a child in God’s eyes. I need to be reminded that He wants to be with me. That He loves to watch over me. Not because I am doing anything for Him, but simply because I am His.
Your Heavenly Father is watching over you with His love, right now. In this moment, and countless others. He is there to quiet your fears and doubts. And to sing songs over you that are written just for you, describing the beautiful woman He’s created you to be, while gently leading your heart to know and rely on His love more each day.
What a great reminder for times when nothing’s going right, when we feel like the whole world is against us and nobody understands what we’re going through. I hope the next time you have one of those days you’ll remember that your Heavenly Father loves and delights in you — simply because you are His.Leave a Comment