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Angie is the proud wife of Todd Smith of Selah, and the blessed mommy to Abby, Ellie, Kate, Charlotte, and Audrey Caroline, who passed away the day she was born, April 7th, 2008. Angie was inspired to write Audrey's story, and began the blog www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com in honor of her. You...

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  1. Angie this post have me chills because I actually wrote a post about this yesterday. I wrote about “paying forward” the Gift of Jesus by sharing the great news with others, and while I want to talk to others about it, I always have this fear that I dont know enough about Jesus and that if I try to preach the Gospel, I will make Him look like a fool with my ignorance. Also, I am very shy when approachin people for the first time, which is ironic considering I am an Army officer who leads Soldiers 🙂 But your post was so encouraging about letting Him reveal His power when I have none. Be blessed!

    • Maria, this is just what I want to do. As much as I want to pay forward the gift of Jesus in tangible ways, we are in a very bad situation financially that I am doing it by sharing the good news. No, I don’t know much about Jesus but I know He is good, loving, great and that He loves us and this is what I share.

      I let Him reveal His power through the bumps in my life and share to others that we can still see and feel His love and greatness through all these bumps.

      He is great!

      All good things,
      Charina

  2. You write: “There’s nothing wrong with feeling like you wish a hard season would pass, but I do believe there are treasures we might otherwise miss if we don’t know Him there, in the bumps and the chaos.”
    I have found this to be so true in my life. Thank you for sharing!

  3. I am having a hard time embracing the chance to know him in the bumps and the chaos right now. IT’s one of those situations where there is no way but through it, but I don’t WANT to go through it. I want to be done with it. But I will pray in the clouds. And maybe I will ask Him to make me want to open to what He wants to show me.

  4. Angie, thanks for this post. Been to a lot of bumps, and if this was years ago, I will be horrible to be around with, not now…..

    These bumps have always brought the best in me and bring me closer to Him all the more. Not that I am wishing the bumps would stay, I am just saying that sometimes the bumps is what we need to realize and accept that He is what we need.

    All good things,
    Charina

  5. Angie – this is a beautiful post, with lots to think about; thank you for sharing it.

    Incidentally, if it makes you feel any better, you are drastically safer on a commercial airliner than you are in any car. Airline safety is heavily regulated, most pilots have extensive experience and the technical systems are advanced enough to literally fly and land the plane themselves. :0)

  6. I love this post…. After a recent mammogram, I received a call back. The 2nd test resulted in a biopsy. Through the process and as I waited on the results of the biopsy, I felt raw in a way I hadn’t felt before. I was so dependent on the Lord and so connected with Him… seeking Him constantly. The results were benign… and the raw went away. I wonder how in the busyness of life ~ the bumps or the calm ~ I can get to that connectedness again. I think it’s going to involve driving out the extra white noise in the coming year. Great post! Thanks for the reminder.

  7. Angie,
    I, too, hate to fly but I do once a year to visit my folks. When the plane hits turbulence, I casually look around and study other passengers’ faces. So far, no one has even looked up. I take a deep breath and sit back in my chair and exhale.

    I tell myself the best part of a really bad day with my kids (5 of them) or everything breaking around the house, is that on good days I can truly enjoy His goodness. The Lord has taught me to appreciate all of His gifts that I would normally overlook because I feel entitled to them. Angie, great post.

  8. Thank you for this post today! I am getting ready to leave on a missions trip to India tomorrow. I am doing this out of obedience to the Lord but, I’ll admit I’m scared! I am reminded to stop and seek the Lord where I am right now instead of where I want to be-on the other side of this trip, back at home with my family. He has called me to this trip for a reason and I don’t want to miss out on what that is!

  9. I’ve never flown in a plane before (and don’t intend to), but I can totally relate to your point. I went through what I call my “valley” year. I’m only 46 (my 20 year old says that’s old), but I grew up always around music, and my mom happened to sing in a gospel group. (I love it all!) But from those roots, I remembered in my “valley” year the song, “In The Valley He Restoreth My Soul”. It is so true. How wonderful those mountaintop experiences are, but if you stay there too long, you just might forget WHO got you there. In the valley (or in your, the clouds), is where you learn to depend on God, trust in Him, and grow close to Him, sometimes in those oh so desperate hours. Clouds or valleys – the message is the same. Draw near to Me and I will draw near to you.

  10. I so needed this today. My husband is an educator and I am a stay at home mom. It’s a rough time to be in education right now and we are taking hits left and right with our finances. Some of it out of our control and some we have done to ourselves. But, I know that God has something to teach us in all of this. And rather than getting through this tough season, I want to sit in it and learn and grow and depend on Jesus. Thanks for this. I want to be in prayer in the clouds and in the when all seems sunny and just so! God Bless!

  11. Beautiful post! Thank you for the reminder that through all we endure on this Earth, HE is in control and is preparing us to meet him face to face. We only have to trust!

  12. Thanks for this Angie! Our Father is so good in taking us through those times when we have to rely on Him to remind us to depend on Him always. Thanks for being submissive to His will- had the opportunity to be at WOF for the first time in Rochester and soooo appreciated your words!

  13. As a white-knuckle flyer, I totally identified with your post. I haven’t been on an airplane in a very long time but reading what you went through brought it all back. Often, in the midst of whatever I am going through, I, too, wish it was over, wish I was someplace else, want to run away, fly away. I even have Psalm 55:6 framed on my bedroom wall. But you know…oftentimes when I rant and cry…those are the times when I feel the most authentic in my relationship with God and sometimes the closest. I think He orchestrates those times just so I would get close even to be daring to rant at Him. He doesn’t get ruffled by my own lunacy but patiently waits and never leaves.

  14. “Let Him reveal His power when you have none. For control freaks like myself, it’s an exercise in humility.” Amen to that! I can totally relate.

  15. I am a white knuckle flyer myself and I often get worked up days or even weeks before I actually get on the plane. I loved your example of praying through it, depending on Jesus verses white knuckling it or pretending it’s not there. How many times do we do that with things in our everyday life! Great reminder our dependency should be on Him and even through the bumpy and uncertain parts of life, He is there and we can learn so much and gain so much of Him.

  16. Thanks for your transparency. What a beautiful reminder. I might eventually surrender to Him in some area, but I usually grumble… I needed this.

  17. I’m not a fan of rough flights, but AM a fan of prayer!! Praise God that He has thought of things to give us practice in those desperate prayers…otherwise we’d never know how to do it! LOL

    Kidding aside, trust Him sister. He knows the number of hairs on your head, He knows your fears, He has each day of your life appointed. If for some reason “something bad” happened, take rest in knowing that He knows what’s going on. He has a plan.

    Trust Him, in confidence, not in fear. I know it’s hard, but it’s where we need to walk. To quote that saying…”We don’t know what the future holds…but we know who holds the future…”

    Praying for your New Year, that you’ll grow in this new place of confidence…

    Grace and Peace,
    marina

  18. My hubby absolutely hates flights, and for the same reason as you–Control!

    An area of life I can surrender–work! My job has completely changed since I started 4 years ago. I no longer use any skills I trained for. I’m doing something that takes no traininga at all–at least not 2 years college.

    Keep praying in, above, and around the clouds. God won’t take you out of the situation, but He’ll see you through it!

  19. Thank you for sharing, Angie…may you be blessed always ( whether you are in,under, over and out of the clouds) !

  20. This is so relevant for me right now. For so many reasons, on so many different levels. There aren’t words enough to explain how this post hits me. If you have a moment, please wander over to my blog to read my account of my terrifying trip to Colorado just before Christmas. I am sure you will be able to relate. (sigh).

  21. Great post Angie! I was really challenged by your thoughts, as I seem to pray so much more when I’m “in the clouds” Thanks for being so transparent and for flying to speak to us even when you are afraid.

  22. LOVE the last paragraph. I am a shouter….I shout about where I am and where I want to be…and He graciously listens, but has been redirecting my focus. This morning Zephaniah 3:17 spoke to me in a new way…He will quiet me with His love…when I shift my focus to His love, I have nothing to shout but His praises! Thank you for writing

  23. I loved your post for it brought memories of the many years I spent dreading every flight and being an over seas missionaries for many years more times then I can count had to get where we were going by flying. From the biggest jets to the single engine plane that land on tiny air strips in the jungle to the even more remote locations that require a helicopter. Up till about 6 years ago I dreaded every one of them….but I still got on what ever plane it was because I knew it was God’s will for us. Fear is an over powering emotions but one God will use in the most profound ways as long as we face that fear head on. I am sure that fear aged me prematurely, I am really only about 50 instead of 65 in a few days, ha.

    Clouds alway make me think of an old southern gospel song, , This Could Be The Cloud He’s Coming Back On…but somehow that song never came to me the many times the plane shook like little toy in a big dogs mouth. I have died a few hundred deaths and even planned how my funeral would play out during those fearful times. And yes, yes, yes did my best praying in the grip of that fear.

    Something super natural happened to me though and I cannot even give an exact date to it. But about six years ago we were flying into Madang, Papua New Guinea on one of those single engine plane and I realized I was actually enjoying the beauty that was laid out before me. Then it hit me…goodness I have missed the enjoyment of God’s creations so many times due to my fear from my lack of control over my situation. I think maybe that was when fear left me….I finally gave up the control stick. Now I still don’t live being in a plane when it’s storming and I sometimes I get nerveous but not fearful.

    Your post made me feel like I was sititng in one of those many planes we rode in as we served overseas…how very thankful I am that I did not say… no way God…you expect too much of me. Very thankful you have not let it stop you either from giving out words of wisdom to others.

  24. My dear father in law used to work for Lockheed Aircraft, and I talked to him about my terror of flying, especially when there’s even a speck of turbulence.

    He helped me immensely when he told me that flying in a plane when there’s turbulence is nothing more than being in a car going over a rough road. He explained that the plane is flying on its own “road”, and that I’m just as safe on that as I would be in a car going over a bumpy road. “Visualize it as a highway in the air”, he told me. Well, of course, there is that “air” part, but doing that visualization really did help me the next time I had to fly somewhere.

    “It’s a highway in the sky”, I kept telling myself. “It’s just a bumpy road”.

    And it worked!

  25. Oh, I love this! How applicable for all of us who deal with fear, anxiety, lack of control. I haven’t been on a plane in some time, but what a great picture — those clouds, that ground, that fear. Thank you, Angie, for this. So appropriate for me heading into this new year.