There is one person in the world for whom grace-showing is the last thing I want to do. She is just so unbearable sometimes. She gets on my nerves with all of her demands. Her expectations are both low and high, insulting and impossible. She thinks she can do nothing, and also everything.
She is me. And I am her toughest, most un-gracious critic.
Do you get on your own nerves with all of your issues and hang-ups and pride and success? Does it scare you how much you want the limelight while also terrify you at the thought of having it? Do you say one thing, yet mean another? Are you feeling less-than while also better? Do you compare, critique, size-up, shrink back, and wonder why you have to be so sensitive? Do you wish you were different while also wishing everyone else could just be more like you?
How can we show this girl grace, with all of her yuck and mess and running around? With all of her self-focus and woe-is-me’s while children are starving in Africa and New York and downtown?
It isn’t easy to extend grace to ourselves, to say Yes, you are a mess. What did you expect? But your life is hidden in Christ. He is not a mess. He is in you, and you are in Him. And in that place, you are safe, seen, and accepted. I’m not saying it’s okay for you to never change, but I am saying that receiving grace will be the only way you can.
Receive it, friend. Breathe in the sweetness of acceptance. Release the gavel in your mind that you hold against yourself in judgement. It is not for you to judge, it is not for you to punish, it is not for you.
During the month of October, I am hosting a series called 31 Days of Grace on my blog, Chatting at the Sky. Today is Day 6, and it could be the most important one. Because really, if we do not receive and extend to ourselves the abundance of grace and patience and love that is given for free from the Only One Who Can, then how can we really live?
by Emily Freeman, Chatting at the SkyLeave a Comment