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Hi, I’m Mandy. Thank you for visiting! I want to share with you my motivation for started this blog. I am 32 years old, married to the most amazing man and a mother of three young children, ages seven, four and two. Through seasons of severe depression, my faith has...

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  1. Thank you, Lord that you will never leave or forsake us. Thank you, Lord that you are Sovereign. Thank you, Lord that whatever path You ask us to walk is the most loving way for You to accomplish Your very best in and for us. Thank You, Lord that You are Sufficient for whatever concerns me today. Loving Abba, thank You for holding Mandy so very tenderly. Thank You for giving her the desire of her heart: to hear Your voice. Thank You for her faithfulness in waiting before You.

    • Thank you for your comment. …”whatever path You ask us to walk is the most loveing way for You to accomplish Your very best in and for us.” That is such a good reminder and so true. Thank you for your prayer and thank God for your heart for Him.
      Love in Christ,
      Mandy

    • Thank you, Deb. I am so sorry to hear that you have experienced such suffering. Lord, thank you for your love for Deb and for your sufficiency in our walk through the darkness.
      Love,
      Mandy

  2. Mandy, your weaving together of your pain and David’s Psalms was breathtaking. I’ve struggled with dark days too and it’s so good to remember when I feel like hiding it can be in Him, the One who loves me through it all. Thank you!

  3. Thank you, dear sister in Christ, for sharing the depths of your pain and broken-heartedness. I’m so sorry you have to go through so many heavy things — it seems as if a lot of people are struggling today with more than they think they can handle.

    I’m so thankful for you, that even when you admit to despair and hopelessness, you’re able to profess that God is the answer, your light and hope. He sees your loyalty to him.

    “So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though the going is rough down here for awhile. This only tests your faith, to see whether it is strong and pure or not. It is being tested as fire tests gold, and purifies it. For your faith is far more precious to God than mere gold. So if your faith remains strong after being in the test tube of fiery trials, you will be rewarded with glory and honor and joy at the day of his return.” (I Peter 1: )

  4. I have been there recently and prayed those exact scriptures.
    He sets a table before me in the presence of my enemies. He is the Light in my darkness.
    I love that thought that He delights in me, just as I am.
    He sings and dances over you, even when you are unaware. ( I think this is a song as well as a verse).
    Lord, amaze us today.

    • GraceGal,
      Thank you for your comment. I am sorry that you’ve been there recently. You are right, He is the light in my darkness.
      Love in Christ,
      Mandy

  5. This is so beautiful. I’m going through a valley right now, and am learning to accept, “In the valley He restores my soul.” There was so much I didn’t even know needed restoring!

    “When I can do nothing but breathe in and out and survive another day, you delight in me.”

    … oh, so beautiful. A truth I am slowly learning to accept.

    Thank you for sharing this, dear friend. May God bless you.

    • Alysa,
      Oh how my heart hurts for you. Hang onto Him and focus on what you know is true, not how you feel. He will restore you….it won’t always be this way. I pray that you will hang onto the truth that God is revealing to you.
      Love you,
      Mandy

  6. As the song goes, “I will cling to the old rugged cross and exchange it one day for a crown.” Keep clinging and know that you are loved by HIM, your family and so many people.

  7. THANK YOU for your beautiful words. I also suffer from major depression and write about it on my blog and how God is refining me. Your words are so well written and I feel as though someone else understands. Thank you for sharing.

    • Dear sister,
      I have visited your blog and am blown away by it! I love how you share your heart and have the courage to be so transparent. I know that so many women will be blessed by your words. “He makes everything beautiful in it’s time.”
      Love,
      Mandy

  8. I too have been and out of despair and a feeling of seperation on and off for years. It comes and it goes and that is what I hold on to during the dark hours, the knowledge that this too shall pass…it makes other more difficult times easier to bear. Praying for you!

    • Rachel,
      You are so right…this too shall pass. I know how it is to be in and out of despair. I try not to live in fear of the darkness returning. I pray for you, too.
      Love,
      Mandy

  9. Thank you for bearing your soul. My friend forwarded your blog to me. How ironic that I received this today. I have been in the depths of despair for quite some time. Just yesterday did I hear God’s voice say that He is with me even as I feel so very, very low. Today while at church, I felt His sweet presence that has for so long evaded me. There is hope. As you so beautifully said, When I can do nothing but breathe in and out and survive another day, you delight in me. What a needed salve of truth. Thank you for your honesty and open heart. I will pray for you as you continue this journey of life. You have truly blessed me.

    • Robin,
      Thank you for your prayers and your comment. I so desire for God to use my struggle and I know He will use yours as well. Thank you, Lord, that Robin felt your sweet presence. I pray that You will continue to wrap Your loving arms around her.
      Love you, sister,
      Mandy

  10. Thank you for sharing. I, too, am discovering how God heals and refines me through my depression. The darkness can overwhelm so quickly, and it is sometimes hard to find Him there. But without Him, who could stand against it?

    • willowsprite,
      I am so sorry that you also struggle with depression. It is so comforting to know that others can relate. You are right, even when we can’t feel Him, we know that He is there, otherwise, how could we withstand the suffering?
      Thank you for your comment.
      Love,
      Mandy

  11. I couldn’t even finish reading the last few paragraphs at first because I couldn’t see through the tears… You just wrote my story. Seriously, it’s actually rather eerie. Thank you for the reminder that I am not alone; that I was not chosen especially to suffer like no one else.

    • Sister,
      You are not alone. I love how God uses us to encourage one another. Thank you for your comment and hang onto Him for He is hanging onto you.
      Love in Christ,
      Mandy

  12. Oh my gosh, I just went through the dark depths of despair you are writing about! God was doing some major refining in my life and brought me to a state of brokenness before Him. I had no choice but to rest and be still and know He was God. I was in such an emotional fog. Joy was so elusive. It was a very dark and scary place, but joy comes in the mourning. I am now out of that fog and experiencing joy and excitement like never before! I feel I am healed from some deep seated wounds that held me back. I had to go through the pain, the valley, in order to reach the mountaintop! God is faithful. He wants us to surrender everything to Him and not hold back our pain from the past. I finally did and boy, am I glad!!

    • Thank you, Lord, for your healing work in Karen’s life. Thank you, Karen, for sharing your heart and for being such a witness of faithfulness through your pain. Love,
      Mandy

  13. Dearest Mandy,
    I have not been able to put into words, as you have, the turmoil and pain of depression. I am on month 10 and with Gods love and mostly carrying me, medication, and counseling, I can finally see a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. God has blessed me with a precious family of six children and a wonderful husband. My prayer through this time has been that I would be able to take care of my family. There were days I thought I would not, but he intervened. I KNOW He loves me and I will be healed in this life or in my life with Him. You are in my thoughts.