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Taking a break.
Letting myself lie perfectly still on my bed, staring at the ceiling and doing nothing productive.
Spending as much time in prayer as I should.
The list could go on and on but you probably get the point. These are all things I don’t do a great job of doing and I can see the toll it’s taking on me.
There is, within each of us, an inherent need for Sabbath that I believe has fallen by the wayside in the wake of all things “now.” The search for the most efficient, most updated, most powerful, most advanced etc. has led us as a society into a pit that I fear we may not be able to crawl out of. As I study the scriptures on this very topic, I begin to see how great the gap between the life the Lord has intended and what we feel we can do better.
I think this whole notion of a “simple” lifestyle is somewhat of a hot button right now in the Christian world, but I’m not certain that most of us are up for the challenge of really making it happen. We don’t want everyone to pass us by so we keep saying we want change and the spending our days exactly how we said we wouldn’t.
In the past few months I have really tried to focus on eliminating what I don’t need, and it has made me painfully aware of how poorly I actually succeed. I get rid of things only to gather more. I drop things in my schedule just to fill them in with more. I say I want a simple life because it sounds easy and peaceful, and what I have realized is that this is a major internal struggle for me. I feel lazy when I’m not going, going, going, and often times it is at the expense of the very people I want to protect from the madness.
What it all comes down to, and what I am focusing my thought-life on currently, is the idea of contentment.
When is it enough? When is it the point where we just accept that we don’t need bigger and better, and that we are satisfied with exactly what we have?
I have made it a practice in the past weeks to catch myself in the line of thinking that leads me into the rut of desiring more. I just saw a friend who has the coolest new electronic gadget and I can very easily convince myself that life would be “simpler” if I had it. I mean, seriously. It can do everything but park my car for me. I just know that if I shell out the (substantial) cash for it, life will really take a turn for the better, and I’ll realize that this was the thing that made it all easier.
I just need this one thing. And then I will be content.
I’m drowning in “one things” right now, with a house full of odds and ends I thought would bring me contentment, and instead are gathering dust. We moved into a new house recently, and as I have gone through box after box of useless junk I have really been convicted about the state of my heart.
Is Jesus everything to me?
Better yet, am I content with Him?
I want to tell you my answer is yes, and I long for it to be true, but as I type these words after a hard day I am struggling. Because truth be told I do the exact same thing with the Lord as I do when I’m looking for the latest thing. I tell Him that if this one thing could happen, I would be better. I would be happier. I would be a better spiritual daughter.
Have you sat before Him and begged, tears streaming down your face because your heart longs so desperately for something? And have you convinced yourself that this is the one thing separating you from a life that makes more sense than the one you currently have?
Just this morning I walked in the bathroom and my five-year-old daughter Kate was singing to her reflection in the mirror. Apparently it was a song she had penned (unless there’s already a “Jesus is my ‘Dude”” song I haven’t heard on the radio yet), and even though I’m not sure if it’s appropriate to call Him a “Dude,” it tickled me that she had been sitting in there for some time singing about Jesus. My other daughters are the same way, filling notebook after notebook with songs about how they love the Lord and their family. That’s not to say that they don’t ever covet material things, because they most certainly do, but they are filling their notebooks with His name.
I’m going to give myself permission to rest today. To soak in all that Jesus has set in front of me, without allowing myself to wonder what He hasn’t.
Want to join me? (click here to find out how you can start implementing Sabbath in your life…:))
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