Nearly ten years have passed since I witnessed this admittedly ordinary moment, yet every month or two, it comes to mind once again.
The bare tree branches provided a clear view that February morning. If he had looked up, the man in the baseball cap would have seen a college student with a scarf wrapped around her neck, hands in her pockets, momentarily frozen on the sidewalk.
But he never glanced my way. His focus was set, his gaze steady, his stance wide.
Twenty feet to my right, the man leaned over, each outstretched hand firmly holding onto chubby toddler fingers as the little girl practiced walking, slowly shuffling between his legs.
The child moved forward inch by inch, step by shaky step, but even from a distance, I could tell she was safe.
I was two months away from graduation and entirely unsure what life would look like in a matter of weeks. I had a hundred questions and very few answers, but something subtle shifted that morning. There wasn’t an audible voice, no burning bush, no whisper in the winter wind. But in the seconds that passed before I continued on my way to class, a verse came to mind:
“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.”
Isaiah 41:10 NLT
The Message translation says it this way: “Don’t panic. I’m with you. There’s no need to fear for I’m your God. I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you. I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.”
A smile spread across my face as I wrapped my jacket closer, struck by the idea that perhaps this was a very small picture of a much larger truth. Maybe, just maybe, it was a visual for the girl who happens to be a visual learner, a snapshot that would remain frozen in her memory, ready to be remembered when she felt alone, unsteady, or overwhelmed.
Suffice it to say, I started paying special attention to verses that talk about how we’re secure in God’s hands. It didn’t take long before the list began to grow, each one reiterating the promise of Isaiah 41.
In John 10, Jesus says that no one can snatch us from the Father’s hand. In a moment of reflection, the writer of Psalm 73 says, “My feet had almost slipped; I had nearly lost my foothold… Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.” In Psalm 139, we’re assured that even in the deepest dark, God holds on.
Over and over, Scripture seemed to echo itself, doubling down on the promise: we are held secure. God will not let us go and never, not for a single moment, will we find ourselves walking alone.
Our steps might be shaky. We may not be able to see more than one foot ahead. We might feel like our feet are slipping, might worry about what’s around the bend, might be weary from slowly shuffling along for so long.
But as we step into an unknown future . . .
As we walk toward change, walk through what we never saw coming, walk among the ashes of what was or even, perhaps, what will never be . . .
We can rest assured that one thing is absolutely certain: we do not walk alone.
Emmanuel, the God who named Himself “God With Us”, created the entire universe and then, in great humility, made Himself small enough to be held in human hands. The One who formed man from the dust of the ground became the God-man who bent down to write in the dirt, who broke bread and then broke open, arms spread wide and hands pierced even as they reached out. And even then, all the while, He was holding each and every one of us secure, perfectly keeping every promise that was made.
Time has ticked on, but the memory of that tiny wobbly toddler secure in the hands of her father resurfaces regularly. It’s still funny to me that something so ordinary, a moment that lasted no more than half a minute, continues to circle back a decade later. But now, when I feel alone, unsteady, or overwhelmed, I try to picture myself not as the college senior observing from a distance, but as the little girl looking up at the beautifully scarred hands holding mine.
In my imagination, just beyond the hands wrapped around mine, there’s a gentle smile, a little wink, and a kind voice that says, “I had you then and I hold you now. Come what may, I’ve got you.”
His gaze is steady; His grip is secure.
Step by shaky step, we are held all the way Home.
Never, not for one moment, will we find ourselves walking alone.
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Madeline says
Beautiful and reassuring message. Sets a wonderful tone for the day. Thank you.
Ruth Mills says
Simply beautiful & on the mark! Blessings (((0)))
Laura K. says
Kaitlyn, the beauty of your writing continues to affect me to my core. You had me at “…looking up at the beautifully scarred hands holding mine.” What an imagine carrying me through the muck and the mire of living in this broken world and “all the way Home.” Thank for your gift of penning these beautiful words to touch my souls…at such a time as this. Many Blessings, Laura
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Laura! Your kind words are a gift today. Thank you for reading and then taking the time to write this encouragement back. I really do appreciate it. <3
Kathy Cheek says
So beautiful the way God used a very little girl to reassure you that He is always with you! Thank you for this encouraging reminder today.
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
She must be nearly a teenager now and yet the image has remained… thankful for that visual! It’s cheesy to say “as we grow, God doesn’t go” and yet that’s stuck in my mind.
Cathy says
Kaitlyn, so poignant, so visual, so encouraging this morning. Blessings. Cathy
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Thank you so much, Cathy!!
kim marquette says
Perfectly timed…as He always does. Thank you.
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Kim! I for sure smiled when I saw your name here in the comments. You crossed my mind this morning when I listened to the podcast. 😉 Thank you for the kind words!
Irene says
This is wonderful, Kaitlyn! Thank you.
Janet W says
Thank you
Karen jacobs says
Your words touched my soul this morning. I need this reminder from time to time since I lost my husband. It has been a difficult journey but knowing that we don’t walk alone does give me the comfort and hope that I need at this time. Thank you so much. Blessings, Karen
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Oh my, what a difficult road to be walking, Karen. I’m so sorry and am pausing immediately after leaving this comment to pray for extra comfort and hope.
Kayla says
I’m graduating college next month, and I’ve felt very uncertain about what life in the “real world” will bring. This posting, along with thinking on God’s guidance in prior seasons, has encouraged me to trust in Him and not a season. Thank you for this picture❤️
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
“…to trust in Him and not a season.” Man oh man, that. I can still vividly remember and go right back to how those last few months of college felt… it’s a lot. Good, difficult, sad, nerve-racking, confusing, exciting, etc. I’m so glad this arrived at the right time for you! No matter what the next season does or doesn’t hold, you’ll remain held. <3
Dawn Davies says
Kayla,
Congrats on your college graduation!
While you might be anxious now, just know that “the journey” is what life is about.
Dawn Ferguson-Little says
So true God is with us all the time no matter what we go through. Thank you Kaitlyn it spoke to me. Love all you said. Love and prayers big hugs Dawn Ferguson-Little Enniskillen Co.Fermanagh N.Ireland xx
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Thank you, Dawn! I appreciate your kind words. 🙂
Claudia Batke says
Thank you for your kind words. And the visual!
Cheyla says
I appreciate the message, it’s beautiful. But why do I still feel so very alone? :'(
J says
Your comment of perhaps will never be ,left me so depressed. I’m praying for healing of brokenness in our family. How can healing of brokenness in our family not be Gods will?
Kaitlyn Bouchillon says
Hi J, I hear you. That’s the tension of the ‘both/and’… part of what we’re praying when we say “on earth as it is in heaven.” Personally, I don’t believe that God wants brokenness, sickness, or pain. And yet… we experience these, right? One day all will be redeemed and God will make all things new, but we’re still in the both/and for today.
I can look back on my own story and see things I prayed would come to pass and, so far, have not. And sometimes, we really can say it will never be — at least not in the way we prayed for. An example of that could be someone who longs to carry and birth a child but is unable to do so. There are numerous stories in Scripture of God making a way in that very scenario, yet even then there’s a difference in raising kids at the same age as your close friends v later in life. Both beautiful in their own way! But, there’s an element of “never will be” there.
Personally, I’ve been praying for healing from chronic illness for 13 years. It could change in the future (and I pray it does!), but I’ll never know what it would have been like to not have this daily pain over the last decade. And it begs the question: what if it doesn’t ever change? Where I landed in this writing is that even then, even if our prayers weren’t answered how we hoped or aren’t answered how we hope in the future, we are never walking alone.
Sometimes we grieve the death of a dream even while praying for what may be down the road… It sounds like you’re doing that, as you pray for healing in your family! I pray that as you grieve what hasn’t been/isn’t, and as you continue praying, you’ll experience God’s kind nearness and comfort. You are not walking alone, not for a second.
Daphne Goodman says
Thank you so much for your beautifully written and God- inspired words this morning. I needed to both read and see the visual you described in my mind’s eye. My siblings and I are currently walking through a storm. Our mother, in advance of her 90th birthday celebration traveled to MD from TX. Three hours later she suffered a massive stroke that affected her left side. A month in, as the only daughter in MD, I’ve shouldered most of the burden of caregiving even though she’s in a rehab facility. It’s been comforting to read a post that reminds me that Mom is not alone and my siblings and I are not alone either. It’s been difficult to watch our very fiercely independent mom now reduced to needing 24/7 assistance. Yet, in that place she is still holding on to the God she’s walked with for decades. Worship and prayers fill her mouth that’s twisted from the stroke. Tears run from her eyes in gratitude even in her weakened body and her right hand continues to be lifted to the God of her salvation. I’m challenged myself to keep thanking God for His faithfulness in the little things everyday, like our sweet mama does. Thank you so much for your post. We are all held in His capable hands!
Beth Williams says
Kaitlyn,
Psalm 23:4 Yea thou I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Even the psalmist knew he wasn’t alone in the darkest times. There are times when we may feel alone. That’s why I tell my patients’ families that I am praying for them I understand how hard it is to sit in a hospital room waiting on the patient to get better. I pray it makes them feel better knowing that they aren’t alone & that it spreads a little of God’s love!!
Loved the image of nail scarred hands reaching down to hold mine.
Blessings 🙂