I was sitting outside soaking up the summer sun when my phone buzzed with an incoming text from one of our adult sons.
“Can I come home? I need to come home.”
For months, he’d faced numerous challenges. A rigorous college academic load and challenging leadership positions, all exacerbated by a pandemic that wouldn’t go away. Then in the middle of all that, one of his most important relationships went south. This is our optimistic child, the one whose glass is always half full. And the one who thrives on relationship. I could sense his discouragement, no matter how brief the text.
“Of course. Always. I’ll have your room ready.”
I remember doing something similar decades before, when I was a sophomore at a small private Christian college. Although in many ways I thrived, I was still a young nineteen-year-old with a fragile self-image and a desperate desire to be loved. So when a few peers made some thoughtless comments about my appearance, it crushed me. I remember the humiliation and rejection. And I remember lying on the bottom bunk in my dorm room when I made the call to my parents.
Can I come home?
There is a homesickness we feel in places of pain. No matter the size or source, pain shouts, “This is not the way it’s supposed to be!” And no matter the friends we call or distractions we employ, the suffering creates an otherness, alienating us from everything familiar. And causing us to long for home with a cry that rattles our bones.
The author of Hebrews recounts the many men and women of faith who experienced this homesickness in suffering:
“All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance, admitting that they were foreigners and strangers on earth. People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one.”
Heb. 11:13–16
Longing for heaven. Homesick. But this kind of homesickness can’t be cured by an earthly solution.
In 2014, I got a phone call from my dad while I was speaking at an event in Florida. While I sat in my hotel room thousands of miles away, my dad told me that he had only a few months left to live. Pancreatic cancer is vicious, and my fathers was no exception.
That was May 8. By August 19 he was gone. In those three short months, I watched my father process the reality of his mortality. Earlier that same year, I’d received a second cancer diagnosis, so I took notes. I watched him mourn his impending death, the future he’d dreamed of with his wife, children, grandchildren, and friends, the memories we’d make without him, and the plans he’d made but wouldn’t achieve.
But I also watched him dream of heaven. As if he were planning a once-in-a-lifetime vacation, I saw his anticipation and excitement and watched as he planned and prepared. He read his Bible more, talked about Jesus more. And although he grieved, he also experienced real joy. After spending his adulthood dreaming of heaven, that dream was about to be fulfilled.
Homesick. He was homesick.
Can I come home?
Of course. Always. I’ll have your room ready.
On August 19, 2014, he finally got to see it.
Although you and I have mailing addresses, this is not our home. It will never be our home. We feel the ache of this truth every time the temporary walls of our lives crumble and crash. It is oh so easy to forget that this life is not all there is. But, as author Randy Alcorn said in his book Heaven, “We cannot anticipate or desire what we cannot imagine.”
What if we spent more time dreaming and planning for heaven? What if we allowed ourselves the luxury of anticipation, of dreaming of the life that is to come with as much enthusiasm as we dream of our next tropical vacation? Doing so is part of the practice of perspective, and one of the secrets to a faith that does not fail.
As real as our challenges are, heaven must become even more real. That pain you feel? You’re homesick. But that’s okay, because to be homesick only confirms that the best is yet to come.
Go ahead and dream, even while you weep. One day soon, you will finally be home. And He’ll have your room ready.
Taken from A Faith that Will Not Fail by Michele Cushatt. Copyright © March 2023 by Zondervan. Used by permission of Zondervan, www.zondervan.com.
Life can be hard. Although there are moments of beauty and goodness, more often than not, life is marked by fear, struggle, disappointment, and loss. And we don’t know what to do with it. We’ve tried to find hope and security in various people and places — but each has proved unworthy of our trust. We need more. Something — or Someone – -who won’t fail us when our world falls apart.
In her new book, A Faith that Will Not Fail: 10 Practices to Build Up Your Faith When Your World is Falling Apart, beloved author and Bible teacher Michele Cushatt presents a better way. By exploring powerful personal, historical, and biblical stories of people of extraordinary faith, she curates and shares ten practices to help you deepen your confidence and certainty in the God who can be trusted with your worry, questions, confusion, and grief. As a woman who has been through immeasurable suffering, Michele writes with both deep compassion and practical insight as she guides you to:
- Practice lament and process grief without guilt or shame.
- Understand what keeps you from trusting God and how to navigate doubt with truth.
- Learn simple ways to foster shalom and gratitude on a daily basis.
- Develop a fresh, eternal perspective that delivers both peace for today and hope for tomorrow.
- Savor daily “faith-builder” practices to strengthen your confidence in God’s love and purposes for you, no matter what happens.
There is hope in your hardship and a God who is both with you and for you. A Faith that Will Not Fail points the way to the only One you can truly trust, and ultimately, to a faith in him that will not fail.
Order your copy of A Faith that Will Not Fail today . . . and leave a comment below for a chance to WIN one of 5 copies*!
Then join Becky Keife for a conversation with Michele this weekend on the (in)courage podcast. Don’t miss it!
Judyc says
Michele, thank you so much for the reminder that this world really is not our home, and that God has a marvelous place ready for us. I would love to win one of these books, my parents have significant health issues and this book sounds like the encouragement we need to keep our faith built up!
Michele Cushatt says
So glad to hear it encouraged, Judy. Much love to you and your parents.
Elizabeth says
This is a must read for me!
Michele Cushatt says
🙂 Yay!
Melissa Melvin says
Beautiful, thought-provoking, encouraging and much needed words. Thank you so much, Michele! I know this book is one I will come back to time and time again and probably use with many people that I have the privilege of ministering to. May God bless you for your obedience in writing!
Michele Cushatt says
Thank you, Melissa. Such an encouragement to me!
Sammy says
Thank you for sharing your story. I found myself able to relate as I have watched both my parents lose their battles to cancer. I have tried hard to understand, but in that understanding, I found beauty in the ashes.
Michele Cushatt says
Yes, beauty in the ashes. Isaiah 61. Thank you for sharing, Sammy.
Lisa says
The image of “your room is ready” when it is time for each of us to go Home to Heaven is beautiful!
Michele Cushatt says
It changes how I receive and internalize Jesus’ words “I go and prepare a place for you…” (John 14:2-3). Such a gift.
Belinda Graham says
Wow, this touched me. To think of heaven as an anticipated dream vacation …… I “get” that!!!
ThankYOU♥️
Michele Cushatt says
One day! And what a day that will be!
Nadine says
Thank you for this opportunity to win this book.
Kathy Francescon says
One of the most beautiful posts I have ever read. If this doesn’t speak to your heart, nothing will. I am constantly homesick for my home in heaven. God is our only comfort and hope here in this dark and evil world. Can we come home? Grieving with the ones who are grieving the losses from the tragic shooting yesterday in Nashville, Tn. Please God, help us.
Michele Cushatt says
Yes yes yes. Grieving over here too, Kathy. Jesus, have mercy.
Lori Smith says
Love this! I relate to this, as I have had the “feeling” of wanting to go home as well when things have gotten rough.
Polly Hagedorn says
I was encouraged by your podcast regarding homesickness. It is easy to let the horrible events of killings and devastating weather events bring you down and make you feel like the world is so broken. You gave me a lot to think about as you encouraged me to dream of my heavenly home as much as I look forward to a vacation or some other happy time. May God bless us and May we draw closer to Him.
Michele Cushatt says
Amen and amen.
Charissa Olson says
Thank you so much for your godly reminder of where our hopes need to be anchored. I went from seeing granddaughter baptized Sunday-believers baptism- to reading of children her age gunned down this Monday…homesick for how it will be one day and living in the hope of the gospel today. Keep writing!
Gail says
I love the thought of hearing Jesus say “Come home. I’ll have your room ready.“
Michele Cushatt says
Me, too. <3
Flor says
My 8 year old daughter spends a los of time thinking about heaven. She has panick attacks because of everythkng she imagines and the things she fears might happen and what she doesnt understand. She has been going through this for over a month now. Everytime she is alone with her thoughts (about everything) she starts getting desperate and fearful. It is breaking my heart to see her like this. Because I know the feeling all too well and since she was born I’ve always asked God not to let her or her brother go through this ever. How do I help my Child? I am loosing hope.
Michele Cushatt says
I am so very sorry, Flor. Jesus, you know this sweet girl’s suffering, and her mother’s desperation to help her. You are the healer, and we’re coming to you for relief. Please, Jesus, deliver, heal, comfort, save. We don’t know what to do, but our eyes are on you. (2 Chronicles 20). Amen.
Sharon A says
Oh my this book talks to me! Almost every day since my husband died I tell God I want to come home to my real home. I so needed this. Thank you.
Michele Cushatt says
Be encouraged, sister. You’re not alone.
Rachel Marie Kang says
Such a necessary word. Cheering you on, Michele — HBD (Happy Book Day)!
Michele Cushatt says
Thank you, RMK! xoxoxox
Susen says
I needed to read this today. A recent cancer diagnosis for my husband is hitting me at the core. BUT I have faith in almighty God knowing He will see us through and that His grace is sufficient. It isn’t easy this thing called faith but m holding on
God bless
Kim Weldon says
Thank you for sharing your post…it’s a wonderful reminder to believers that Jesus has a room ready for us! Ever since my fiancé unexpectedly passed away, I have been reading and studying the Bible more to enhance my relationship with the Lord. I would love to win a copy of your book!
Michele Cushatt says
Oh, Kim, I’m so sorry for your loss! Thank you for sharing with us. We’re with you.
Bev Rihtarchik says
Michelle,
I am comforted by the thought Jesus is preparing a place for me in heaven. I’ve seen glimpses of heaven in this lifetime, but I know they pale in comparison to what He actually has in store for us. All the pain I’ve endured (physical, mental, emotional) in this lifetime confirms this world is not my home. I am just a stranger passing through. Even in my younger years, I had a homesickness for heaven deep in my soul. I saw what went on in the world and knew it wasn’t what God had in mind. Especially now, we need to adopt a more eternal perspective. I know one day (hopefully soon) I will be healed of the infirmities that have plagued me. Some may call them a “curse” but I call them a blessing because they have been the compass which continually directs me to my true North (Jesus) and my forever home (heaven). Beautiful post and will definitely pick up a copy of your book.
Blessings,
Bev
Michele Cushatt says
Beautiful, Bev. Such hard-won faith. May He continue to lead, strengthen, and love you, all the way home.
Cheyla says
Oh Michele, I can’t even fully express how much I needed to read this today. Blessings!
Anna Gibson says
I have a son who comes home to sleep on the couch. He lost his room to younger bro when he went to college. I wish I had a quiet place for him to find peace on college breaks. More so I wish he was ready to embrace the truth that we are all homesick for Heaven. I pray he discovers this soon, and finds peace in Jesus.
Michele Cushatt says
Jesus, make it so.
Sherry Chatham says
Michele, Your book sounds like it would be helpful to me as I navigate through multiple health issues! I would love to receive a copy from your give away. Otherwise due financial restrictions compounded by my health, I will have to wait until it is in our Library. Thank you for sharing your wisdom gained from your experience & study. Eccl. 3:11 has been a great comfort to me as I am going through this. “He has set eternity in the heart of men.” Amen! Thank you Lord!
Love & Prayers, Sherry Chatham
slc1954@sbcglobal.net
Stacey E. says
Awesome post. I would love to win a copy of the book! It sounds like just what I need right now. Blessings to you.
Janet W says
We all get “homesick” in our seasons of life. Thank you Michele for the beautiful reminder….
….”Of course. Always. I’ll have your room ready” He never fails!
May your book release be amazing \0/
E says
This really hit home with me. Day by day I am preparing to say goodbye to my sweet mommy. Only God knows when she will see Jesus. I am mourning her as I wait on the Lord to take her home. My faith some days have wavered but I know I must trust God in the process! Oh but it hurts! I thank God for each minute with her! I am praying for strength and peace!
Jane says
E, know that there are others (like me) going through similar things. I pray that you will find peace in the Lord for yourself and your mom.
E says
Thanks Jane
E says
Thanks Jane
Juliana Gouveia says
What an encouragement! I want to read the rest of the book! So good ❤️
Jane says
This article (in the book it comes from) comes at an appropriate time for me as I watch and try to help my mom through the after effects of multiple mini strokes. I’m also dealing with my own reoccurring physical issues. I think we are both searching for answers and support and strengthening faith. Thank you.
KC says
I am very tired. This would be nice. (heaven, preferably, to be honest; but this book sounds like it’s potentially a good lift?)
Beth Williams says
Michele,
I’ve been home sick for a while now. It seems like we are going back to Sodom & Gomorrah. Everyone doing just as they please. Now worries about tomorrow. Watching society’s morals & depravity saddens me. Makes me long even more for heaven. I know this isn’t what Jesus had in mind when He made the Garden of Eden. Praying for our world that people will wake up & think about where they will spend eternity.
Blessings 🙂
Stephanie B. says
Thank you, Michelle. And thank you for responding to me a few weeks ago about OT verses and Rom. 8:28, etc. My mom passed away 2 weeks ago. We kept telling mom that God was preparing a room for her, but it must not be ready yet. I think in her dementia she still understood that
I feel like I need to change my mindset somehow after 3 years of caregiving…
I finally started reading Relentless Sunday night. The Introduction, which was so wonderful, made me cry… So I guess that means I need to read the rest of the book! I glanced through the quotes you used in your book, and they are sweet, too. Later I found this quote that really resonates with me, by Henri Nouwen: “The dance of life finds its beginnings in grief……Here a completely new way of living is revealed. It is the way in which pain can be embraced, not out of a desire to suffer, but in the knowledge that something new will be born in the pain.”
Thank you for your words, wherever they may be, and for sharing the difficult things in life, and even harder, the difficult emotions! xoxo Stephanie B.
Michele Cushatt says
Oh, Stephanie. I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of your mother. Such a gaping hole. It makes sense that you are struggling to find your footing after being a caregiver so long. Be kind to yourself. Grief takes as long as grief takes. Jesus won’t leave your side. Much love, sister.
Mary Ruth McNatt says
Words that remind and show us how to live forward and upward. This devotion encouraged me to let my soul rest in Jesus.
Bobbie says
This makes me think of my mother’s last weeks on earth. Though she had many plans and dreams with loved ones, her health was quickly failing her, and she seemed content in her last days to move towards heaven; looking forward to a fully restored body and being reunited with her loved ones that had gone before her! This comforted us at the time, and continues to ease our sorrow as we grieve her passing. Thank you for this!
Heidi says
I have seen this advertised on Facebook and would love to read it. Thank you for the opportunity to win!
Milagros says
This reminds me so much of the scripture verse I’ve been thinking about for awhile (Colossians 3:2-4).
Much of life here on earth is filled with difficulty and pain. Personally, I often feel this longing within my soul, even though I have people in my life who love me. Perhaps the yearning to be where I truly belong is the reason for how I feel. Your book sounds like a fascinating one, Michele.
ELMorehead says
And when I get to Heaven, Jesus will greet me with the Biggest & Best Hug of my life!
Rhonda Smith says
Dreaming of heaven! What a day that will be. We can only imagine. Take me there imagination!
Becky Gonzalez says
So thankful for these timely reminders!
Alicia Potvin says
Excited to read this one! Christian authors speak right to my heart as a teacher in a Christian school.
Kayleen says
I’d love to read this book
Laura says
This sounds like a wonderful and insightful book that I would love to read! Thank you for a chance to win a copy!
Heather Edwards says
Thank you for the opportunity to win a copy of the book A Faith that Cannot Fail
Dee says
I lost my mom to metastatic breast cancer when I was 10, my brother was 8. Our dad worked 2 jobs to support us which left us alone most of our childhood. My brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia as a result of the trauma. He’s 65 now and suffering still. I had a chance to lead him to Christ before he was diagnosed. My papa passed away from the unrelenting stress of his family. I have had no immediate family most of my life. Some would say an orphan. We’re all orphans who are adopted by our loving heavenly father. One can either become bitter or lean into the arms of the One who calls you His beloved. Come Lord Jesus, soon.
I’m currently reading your book, ‘Relentless’ and seeing clearly the ‘unshakable presence of a God who never leaves’ Thank you Michele Cushatt.
Kathy McKinsey says
This sounds like such a wonderful, encouraging book.:)