“Forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 3:13–14 NASB
I recently found my favorite pair of jeans from college. When I tried to put them on, I quickly realized they weren’t coming up past my thighs. I stared at the long mirror on the back of my closet door, examining the curves of my hips, the cellulite on my thighs, and the stretchmarks on my waist. This body wasn’t how I remembered it. Tears, anger, and frustration flowed as I peered at my reflection.
Later that week, I was working with an older gentleman who needed physical therapy for weakness and balance. He reminisced about how he’d played college sports and how now his body was practically useless. I urged him to focus on his present abilities and how far he’d come in therapy. I encouraged him to honor his body for what it was today instead of comparing it to its past.
When I saw my old jeans later, I realized so much had changed in twelve years, including my pant size: marriage, a career, two babies, travel — I’d lived so much life! I decided to take my own advice and honor who I am today. I wouldn’t resent my body for not meeting an unrealistic goal or punish it through dieting. I would ditch the old jeans and stop looking back. Then I thought of Lot’s wife.
She was promised to be saved from destruction if she fled without looking back. Sadly, she looked back and turned into a pillar of salt. She had a guaranteed future, but she glanced back at what had brought her comfort instead of focusing on what was ahead.
Often the “glory days” or the “good ol’ days” make it hard to find contentment in the present. It’s hard to step into an unknown future when we live in the comfort of yesterday’s memories.
Friend, God’s not done with you. He isn’t disappointed that you’re different today than you were ten years ago. He wants you just the way you are, right now — cellulite and all. So, no more turning back.
Amen, Simi! My college roommate cross-stitched a little girl with clothes askew, pigtails coming loose & dirt on her face. The caption reads ” please be patient, God isn’t finished with me yet.” It’s had a place on my wall with every home since then. Oh the grace we need to give ourselves & others as God works in us for a future & a hope! Blessings (((0)))
I have a pair of favorite jeans hanging in my closet, too. Up until 3 years ago, they fit. I didn’t wear them as often as I wanted because I wanted them to last. Well, 20 lbs. later, thanks to an injury that kept me from my usual active life, I learned a valuable lesson about appreciating what I have and making the most if life. I need to acknowledge God all the time and make use of the gifts I’ve been given all the time. So I am focused on service to others. The jeans are a good reminder for me.
Fantastic reminder to look forward, not at what was, but what is to be when we follow the plan and purpose God has for our lives. Greater is coming!
Dear Simi……I cried as I read your devotion today. I used to be a very slim women, but due to medical operations that involved a long recovery period and not much activity, I gained weight. I was so crushed when I tried to wear my older clothes. Nothing fit. This had never happened to me before as I was kind of an exercise freak, running, high impact aerobics for 90 minutes then step aerobics, but one thing nobody tells you, that yes, you maybe in excellent shape, but they don’t tell you that as you age, you end up paying for all of this activity. My knees, my feet and my hands just do not work anymore and at 78 I walk with a cane. I can still drive and I live in a Senior Living Facility that is supposed to be Independent living, but they let anyone, no matter their condition in as long as they can pay the rent. There is no care here and these people are lost and I have seen in the 2+ years I have been here so many people come in fine and end up dying here. Many of them have such serious mental problems that their families just dump them here and some of them are dangerous to the rest of us as they do many things that are bad. So now after many years, I have finally gotten clothes that fit me, I know that I have to move from here to a place that is well managed and really cares about their residents instead of just because they can pay. I know, Simi that God is not done with me, but I have serious problems with what used to be my family. They continue to torture me and every day I don’t know what they are going to do to ruin my life even more. That is a tough thing to not look back on, but when I get myself calmed and pray to Jesus and tell Him, I find that He and my Holy Spirit tell me just what you said “God in not done with me” so it enforces me to remember that God works on His own timeline. I need to try and be more patient and I know at some point, something good will happen. I am weary and afraid as this situation should have been over last August, but hey continue. Thank you, Simi. Your words have really helped me and the past year, I have asked many people here, ” Did you ever think when you were 40 that the end of your life would be so very, very different?” Every single one said no as I did as well. Love to you Simi and may you have a Blessed Weekend…………………Betsy Basile
Well said!
Well, I don’t think this necessarily applies to my difficulty putting my socks on this morning. I think I need to work on that issue!
So true but even when you are convinced Gid is not done with you yet, the question remains, what am I to do now?
Dear Donna….That was a good question you asked. I would like to know the answer to that too. Thanks for your comment.
Love to you……………Betsy Basile