Me two years ago sending in my first signed book contract
I was going through some old posts of mine, and as I read them I thought, “These are pretty good.”
Now before you think I’m being arrogant or some such thing, let me tell you that I struggle deeply with feeling like a fraud as a writer.
I fight and squirm when I have to write, and I’ve all but convinced myself that I have no business writing. So when I tell you that I said to myself that I actually like some of the things I’ve written, it’s kind of a big deal to me. It tells me, maybe I can write, maybe it doesn’t matter what I think so much as that I get out of my own way, keep my eyes on purposes of the kingdom, and just keep on writing. Ain’t nobody got time to be neurotic. It’s a self-disease, this constant critiquing of self.
And it just distracts us from the glory work at hand.
If you’ve got business to do, and God has put you in a place to do it, get out of your own way and get on with it.
“Let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles.
And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.”
Throw off the constant self-critique and RUN! David’s prayer in the Psalms isn’t that he would search his own heart, but that God would search it and show him the way. I think we’ve been doing too much self-searching and we need to let God do the searching and the revealing and the healing.
How can we run if we keep looking this way and that, and checking our feet and wondering how we look as we run? Let’s get all Eric Liddell with ourselves and just move, even if we look crazy in the process (apparently he looked all crazy when he ran, arms flailing). I’m okay with crazy, as long as I’m thoughtful and focused on the goal. Which reminds me, what is your goal?
My goal, my finish line, it’s not to get to the end of my life and go, “Whew, done! Did well!” It’s to run right into eternity into the arms of my savior, and I can only do that if my eyes keep directed at Him.
What direction are you going?
Friends, let’s stop tripping over our own feet, our own inadequacies and quirks and not quite awesome grammar, and let’s just run with whatever God has put inside us! Whatever it is! Writing, baking, mothering, clerking…whatever! Run, girl! Feel the wind, the Spirit in you as you move to His rhythm. Keep on.
He’ll do the work in you, just keep on.
Love, Sarah Mae, SarahMae.comLeave a Comment