… I think it’s something like joy.
Some time ago, my happiness depended on
- What people thought of me
- How many people needed me
- My independence
- My appearance
- and probably hundreds of sub categories
I’m learning that I find happiness in making my eternal Father proud, walking with integrity, attempting to walk in humility, the smiles of others, in feeling healthy, and in letting someone else take care of me.
And I’m finding that how I feel is no longer manipulated by the words, actions, or comparisons of others; that I can help more by receiving help for myself; that I can rest every day and receive renewal in the Spirit of God without feeling guilty; that feeling healthy is better than feeling stylish; and that true style comes from within along with true beauty which I hope that I can find as I work through adorning my heart.
And so I’m pretty sure that’s called joy… there are about a hundred things I could refer to in scripture… and the beautiful part about it all is that the Holy Spirit fought through my stubborn heart and preconceived thoughts about what happiness was, and how I was failing at it, to show me God’s truth.
I can rest assured that I can be happy, that I can find joy without the applause or satisfaction of others. And that if I am walking in the Spirit, I don’t have to fear and I don’t have to feel guilty.
I am finding that as the path God has laid before me winds and turns, I learn new lessons and feel new feelings. And that with the pain of closing one chapter, I can look forward to the joy of the next.
I don’t have to feel guilty for turning the page, because God is doing wonders in my life…. and I have a feeling that I’m not the only one.
Thankful for His adventures.
By Micaela de Gruy, Breaking GroundLeave a Comment
Alright! What freedom comes from ‘turning the page,’ as you say, from following His lead. That’s where the adventure lies. I look forward to reading what comes next on this path.
Beth Williams says
Yay for the page turning in your life. It is always better to follow His lead and not worry about earthly stuff!!
I’m right there with you! It has taken me 32 years to get to the place where I am OK with who I am and who God is making me into and not care about what others think.
Holley Gerth says
JOY is my word for this year. You’re so right–it’s a whole different kind of happy. You’ve given me a lot to think about. Thank you!
Now I’m humming that old Sunday School song…
“I’ve got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart!” It’s a good song to have stuck in my head. : )
I love this. I’ve been led to this place lately, too…such a place of soft refining and gentle loving grace.
Amy Sullivan says
Finding the joy without the applause. That is such a great line. Isn’t it something we all need to work on? Just being and doing to please him.
What a great message.
Amanda K says
Loved this message! I’m continually trying to live only for Him. Sometimes I step away from this path and I’m glad I’m always reminded, by posts like this, to move back onto the right path. Thank you!
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